Well it's officially done. I just did my last shot. The Trigger shot is the last shot of my IVF cycle. This shot causes the eggs to complete the maturation process and to help release the eggs in about 36 hours which is when I will do the my egg retrieval. I was nervous about getting this shot since i so fear needles and this one is the biggest needle of all from all my other shots. Robert had to refresh his memory and we watched the trigger shot training video again. It needs to be done on your lower quadrant area (butt) since its an intramuscular injection. My trigger shot scheduled time was 8pm. I was a nervous wreck for the last hour. Prepped my needle with the medication and called Robert into the bathroom. He made a few jokes just to relax me a little but I was like a zombie. I leaned over my bathroom counter, put all my weight on my left side and let him go at it. I felt the poke of the needle and felt it go all the way in and then the burning sensation of the medication going into my system. Finally it was all over and he put pressure on the area and rubbed it a little to spread the medication. I looked up and saw Robert from my bathroom mirror and got emotional. He gave me a hug and told me it was over. I smiled but yet cried because this is it. I am one step closer to the exact same place i was a year ago - "My egg retrieval day".
As I sit here with a soar butt, and finally feeling the cramping and pressure in my belly like if my follicles are FINALLY growing, I can't help but think of the last 14 agonizing shot giving days. During this process one can't help but think and think. At least that's what I did. Google becomes my best friend, my confidant and my teacher. The one site where i can read up on IVF, other's blogs that are going through the same thing and the place where I try to fill my head with positive IVF inspirational quotes. This is how I dealt with it the last 14 days. Like i've said in past blogs, this cycle was so different from last year. My eggs grew at a much slower pace. I did not feel during those 14 days what i am actually feeling now as i sit here typing up this blog. Within the last 30 minutes I have finally reached that uncomfortable feeling. Where my body feels so bloated and soar. I just want to lay here and relax, which is exactly what I'm going to do. Tomorrow I rest and enjoy the fact that I am not giving myself any shots. Then at 7am on Saturday, July 25th I will be put under to retrieve my eggs. Here's hoping that I have a successful retrieval.
This blog helps me out a lot. Although i've done this before, it's nice to go back and read what I experienced last year and compare with what this cycle has been like.
It's amazing what a woman puts her body through just to try to conceive a little part of herself into this world. Ironic how life works. Those who shouldn't have kids pop them out left and right and those who so badly want the chance to hold a little something that's a part of them in their arms struggle to have a child. I may not be perfect, I am skin and bones, I am a friend, a wife, a person who considers herself honest and kind. Yes of course i'm human and I have my moments like everyone else does but I still consider myself a good person. I am extremely fortunate to have an amazing husband who gave me the chance to stay home so we can make our wish come true. I have been so lucky to have experienced this cycle while at home and I hope that being stress free and relaxed definitely helps me out this time around.
Well folks I have ran out of things to say. I thank those who read my blog and thank the friends I have that listen to my crazyness. With that I leave you with...
"Everyone wants happiness. No one wants pain. But you can't make a rainbow without a little rain."
See you back on Saturday!
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